So.
I think that there may finally be a light at the end of the tunnel.
Keep your fingers crossed for me.
Ugh, things have been so fucked up lately...it has really been getting to me. I am still working that overnight shift one night a week, which by itself is no big deal, because I am a night owl. But add all the other nonsense, and it has not been a good thing. Sunday night I was awake until 7 am, and then last night until 4. Part of it is because working that shift, but it is also because I can't seem to shut my brain off and go to sleep. I have been so conflicted trying to figure out the right way to deal with a situation without making things worse. But then tonight, I have a glimmer of hope that things may work themselves out.
In other news, I am going to Pennsylvania in March to visit one of my best friends, or as I like to call it "Drink Shiraz like a spaz, with a spaz!" I love her so much, and miss her like crazy. She and I went to high school together, but weren't really friends until we worked together at a hotel. Then we went through a LOT of shit together, and I miss her like crazy. I can't wait. I need to get the eff out of here for a few days. She was up all night the other night while I was working the audit shift, which was awesome because we talked online until 5 am, and we realized, as frustrating as that job could be, life was A LOT easier then. Not that I want to still be there, though. With the partying all the time and the STUPID relationships. Gawd. ;)
So, I don't really know what my point is here, other than I am feeling optimistic for the first time in ages.